Mentally ill, the branch is closed for addicts, room number of the 309th
-How are you today? - Asked the doctor Szudarek, a specialist in addictions.
-No crazy ... - answered with little enthusiasm in his voice rose.
This 18 year old girl living on the ward for a month. To date, there has been no contact with her. Only a few days she began to talk with your doctor.
-Nice weather today, maybe go out for a walk? - Asked the doctor.
girl nodded yes and went out. At first there was silence, he suddenly interrupted Rose.
-I really loved it ...
doctor said not a word, just stared in amazement at the girl.
-It all started with a holiday when I became the third high school class. Together with friends I went to a party. Then I met Christopher. It was such a little love at first sight. Everything I liked it and it seemed to me at all so perfect, so flawless. I remember how hot he looked at me when we each were presented. The next day we agreed to meet. I was so little sluggish after this event, probably not the most beautiful I looked, even made me laugh a little, as he said that I look pretty. I could not look nice with rings under his eyes and zaczerwionymi. Few knew then, but saying to us awkward. It was his longest holiday since October began his studies. He got in on philosophy, the total is true even go with it. As he told it he put something in it all his heart and therefore its history wanted to hear.
At this point, Rose was silent. She lowered her head and the cheeks of her tears flowed. The doctor wanted to hug her, but thought it is better to do without touching it. Rose began to speak further.
-saw each other every day. He started his studies in October. He was very happy. Every day after school came to me, told me what they were doing with your friends. It all began with an integration event of the year. He took me to her. I remember that time is terribly nervous because I wanted to have his friends loved me. The meeting was in a student club. Later, his colleagues asked if we leave them outside. CrossFit grabbed my hand and we walked out. He probably knew what was the go. Then one of them pulled out a blunt. I panicked slightly, but did not want to go to the girl, so when the train came to me, I took a hit. I liked it. At that time I did not know that it is the largest swamp in which this ruin my life. Since then, more often, we met up for just such events.
Here again interrupted. But she knew that he must finish the story. She did not want any longer to suppress it in themselves.
-To everything was cool until you have the money. My parents figured out that something is wrong and they stopped giving me money, which I needed more and more. Because amfa is the way we stopped and she no longer suffice. We started to reach for more and worse drugs. Then I began to go worse in school, collapsed mathematics and parents said that I needed tutoring. At this point, Mark appeared. He had to help me with maths. At the beginning it did, but then he did not pay me and I to him. Of course, Christopher Robin knew nothing. He wondered just how I got the money, but simply could not tell him that I play with the old guy who has a wife and two children. Are you sure you would not understand. Every time inventing new stories. So I started to lie to him. At the beginning it was hard, because I did not want him to cheat, I wanted to be loyal to him, but I knew it would help us both. Then not imagine life sober. Every day we had przyćpać. We were one thing, just to get away from reality. That my double life lasted for about half a year. Then I lost control over this. I stopped it all like it, but I knew that when I finish with Mark is not cash and Christopher Robin as I love to walk away from him. One day on the "tutoring" his wife caught us. It was not as good. Quickly ran away. Later he came to me. When I started to unscrew the meetings with Mark, forcing me to be with him in power, often even beat me. I loved just Krysia and no longer wanted him to cheat. I knew that Mark got one last chance from his wife. I decided to call her and say that Mark continues to haunt me. I was hoping it was something change. But it was the opposite. Mark began to overlap with me at home. I did not know how to escape this. His wife threw him out of the house, so he was no longer matter. One day when Mark was with me, came Christopher Robin and it was us together. There was not even what to explain. What he saw helped him to understand everything.
Rose stopped talking, her face was flooded with tears. The doctor gave her his handkerchief Szudarek and asked to continue on. Those were his only words he spoke, all the time Rose's story. He was terribly taken over the story. As a psychiatrist, has worked for 15 years, has heard many different stories, but it moved him so much that he wanted to help this poor girl. Rose was silent. Only when it calmed down and started to calm down to continue.
-Two days later she called me sister, Christopher - Catherine. She said she left a letter for me. I was afraid of this letter. After our last meeting, Christopher Robin came out nervous and did not speak to me through these days not a word. I went after this letter. His sister said that Christopher Robin is not in the house since yesterday, was very upset. I began to read. Christopher Robin wrote that I was all over the world for him and for me would be better, stop smoking and start a new life. But he saw how happy I am, so he wanted to go with me this happiness. "I wanted to watch you until my dying day and now if you want to see me come to the bridge." I knew immediately that most of it. This is where we were on a first date, and later often wandered that way, it was so "our bridge". This is what I saw changed my life. Then I realized that I was sitting in it all and I can not normal life. But now I can not live normally, because I like how, when Christopher Robin is not here anymore. When the bridge was the police and an ambulance. They cut off the string and packed my life into the black bag. It hurt me that I could not explain everything to him, nor to apologize for my mistakes. I reached quickly after the phone rang one of the "colleagues" Christopher Robin. I asked just what is the best product. After 15 minutes, held him in her arms. I wanted to forget everything, end up with itself. The rest is history unless you know better sir. When I woke up I was already 309th in a white room I regret that at all ... I live
doctor was shocked by this story, even he could not say anything.
-Together with Christopher Robin was dead all my life. Because it's what I'm left of him, can not be called life.
That ended the conversation. Dr. Rose walked into the room. When he shut the door he turned and added:
-Rose Your Christopher is not really gone, I left you something that will always remind you about it. Birth to a child, so you have to live for whom and for whom to be a better person.
Rose was very surprised by this news, but on its face appeared for the first since the death of her beloved smile.
-So now I have someone to live for ...
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